My Story

I thought of writing the blogs...why???..there are certain things in my life which i cannot share with anyone. I have to hide it from whole world. Even from the people who are close to me and matter a lot. In such situation where i cannot share my feelings with anyone i always prefer n talk to my imagination. Let me tell you honestly the need of writing this. I wanna share all this to the only one person. I have given him a nick name "Sweetu ji"...hehehe... it might seem funny to you sweetu ji but trust me it whatever i m writing is just for you. I generally keep talking to you in my imagination n feels that you are listening but then i thought writing down everything whatever i wanna convey to you would be much better otherwise people might call me Mad. Now i can share all my feelings n small small things in daily routine to my sweetu ji. In real life you will never come to know about these blogs but yes by writing this i might feel better n get a feeling that you are listening. I cannot tell all these things in real life coz i am not sure how you gonna react whether you will like it or not, you will understand me or not. 

So here i am my Sweetu ji.... missing you so much since last few days. You have no idea how much i am missing you :(...its me n Bhagwan ji...only two people knows....You must be having very good time with your family right now n i am really happy for that but i am also little sad coz i cant hear your voice. its been 5 days since we didn't talked to each other over the phone but seems like a year.  Life looks like a punishment without you. I realized that i cant leave without you. What i should do to keep you in my life so that you never leave me. Then i thought writing would be the best thing to stay in touch with you. I will keep writing everyday n my stupid heart will get an assurance that you are there with me. I have so many things in my mind but not  getting words to explain you. I really wish you could read my mind n i could read yours. I have no idea what you think about me. I love you so much n my heart keeps telling me that you also loves me but my mind says No...you don't. I know i am a stupid girl..but i am like this only. Cant help it..... i know sometimes i becomes so possessive n jealous of your close friends... if by any chance i hurt you then please forgive me.

Year 2010 is saying good bye.... i wish i could hear your voice at this moment n we could welcome 2011 together. 2010 it was memorable year for me. It was really special coz it gave me lot of life time memories which i will never forget. It changed my whole life. You already knows how....hehehe. I m blushing at this moment. I am sure you must be laughing if you are seeing my expressions. I never believed in love and within 3-4 months i am mad in love. Thank you for coming in my life. now i understand love...i believe in love. Its a beautiful experience and people who are in love can only understand this.

You know sweetu ji...i am looking at your pics right now...when i look at your pics or think about you sometimes i smile, i blush, n sometimes tears rolled down from my eyes automatically...i don't know how.....when i see your face, smile automatically comes but when i think about our future...i know i cant have you in my life then i pain starts. It happens 8-10 times in a day when i have to adjust my tears in my eyes so that no one can see it. You have no idea how much i love you...you have very very special place in my heart. You know the biggest problem is that i cannot express how much i love n you don't understand. I have no idea what do you think about me. Its really painful when you know that the one you love don't love you and love somebody else and other people are more important then you. You will never understand this coz you don't understand me....

You are different from others. You are too good. I love your simplicity and honesty.  i wonder how come someone could be so sweet. Sometimes you are naughty and sometimes you are sweet. I love your voice..i love your smile ..i love your eyes... You are really innocent and looks like a small baby. With you, I have found everything I ever dreamed of and beyond imagination. You're a special person sent from heaven.. God must be in very good mood when he would be creating you that's why you came out so perfect. if you ever need me, i will be always around. if for any reason i am not around, always remember that you are always in my mind. I love you with all my mind, body and soul. I love you so very much. You touched my soul...
uff i am getting mad now... please don't laugh...OK. its 11.30pm now...everybody at home is sleeping n i m also going to sleep. Good Night Hug n sweet dream kiss.........
Hey Happy New Year to you and your family...